I watched the how-to video, and put it next to me on the counter. Followed the prep, and draw-up directions to a T (minus a little mishap where some sprayed out of the vial as I was pulling the needle out....oops! Hopefully there's some extra in there). Then, as I held the needle in one hand, and my skin in the other; I was very surprised when my hand wouldn't move. I couldn't do it. There is just something about holding a needle yourself, and having to stab it in your own stomach. I froze.
So I stood there for literally 10 min. skin pinched and ready to go, but the other hand not moving. I counted down in my head, 3, 2, 1.....nothing. Counted back from 10......nothing. All of a sudden I started realizing that I wasn't going to do it....and it was only the FIRST day. I have to do it everyday from now on, and knew I was in trouble.
So I yelled for Adam. He came in and volunteered to do it. I carefully transferred the syringe in his hand. As he came near me with it I freaked out and took it back. We continued this process of handing it back and forth for another 10 minutes.
Finally, I said okay. I'll hold the skin, and look up at the ceiling and you jab it in. So, I looked up said okay. And he did it. Whew! It didn't hurt at all (not even a bee sting), and I knew it wouldn't hurt but I couldn't help it. I got myself all worked up.
I am really hoping I can do it myself tonight. But if not, Adam will have to do it for me every night. Hopefully it won't be a 30 min. charade again though. (exhale).
|Needle after the injection|
Wish me luck!